Meandering around on Chictopia makes me want to get dressed. I would LOVE to be more creative in the way I dress. Hello, that site is inspiring. I just adore the clothes and the photos and well, I LOVE it. Yes, I love clothes. I love pictures of clothes. I love wearing clothes. One day, I think, when all my children are teenagers I will go back to school and get a degree in Fashion Design. Wouldn't that be awesome? Oh, yes it would.
You know, I think I'd like to work for a fashion magazine best. I'd like to write about clothes. I'd like to test drive clothes. Mmmm...I am salivating just thinking about it! That said, I probably won't. More likely I will write a novel or paint a series of dramatic semi-abstract forest paintings. Yes. I want to do THAT. I want to do a series of tree paintings. I love to paint trees. On water colour canvas, with collage, pen and ink, gel pens, sparkle!. Mmmmm....I am salivating just thinking about it!
Apparently it has been some time since I have done anything more creative than dress myself. But it is hard to be creative when you're only free time is mostly consumed by sleeping. Yesterday for an hour of my son's two hour nap, I napped too. Last night I went to bed when my son did. So yeah. There hasn't been much time. Well, at least I haven't been awake for it.
But cry not nonmother types who aspire yet to be so! It isn't like this all the time. And one day it will let up (when I am not pregnant and have children instead of toddlers..right?). And for the time being, by golly, I think it's worth it. After all, what's more creative than raising children? You know that feeling when you look at something that you have written/painted/styled/photographed/crafted/sewn, that feeling of: "Wow, I did that? AMAZING." Well, with your child it isn't like that at all. That example is a poor shadow of the beauty, astonishment, pride, and deep joy that comes from even simply staring at your child's perfect profile.
Sometimes I would paint a picture and I would look at after and think: "There is no way I made this. I am just not that talented/able." I very often felt this way, actually, as if there was a true magic behind the art. When I look at my son I glimpse that magic even further. When the sun falls on his eyelashes, just so, I see very clearly the magic of the world beyond seeing, and the brilliance of a God beyond knowing. For me there is no denying that life is infinitely meaningful and ultimately beautiful when I look at my little boy. So I can wait to paint pictures and design clothing. In the meantime, I intend to enjoy being inspired.
outfit total: $40.25
quilted suede boots, winners: $25
leggings, winners: $8
dress, winners: $3
shirt worn under dress: clothes swap
scarf tied as a hair bow, thrifted: 25 cents
silver necklace, thrifted: $4
brooch, gift from husband, tilly bloom
tiffany's bracelet, gift from husband
silver ring, gift from husband